Wow, there is basically only a week left to the new year. This year seemed to fly by after spring semester for me. I normally use the holiday season as a time of reflection of things that I have done and experienced throughout the year, due in some part to losing a few very close family members around the holidays some years back. However, I don't see the holidays in a negative light. My reflections do stem from missing those who are no longer with us, but they also stem from a deep appreciation for the positive things that have happened and using some of the less positive outcomes as a learning tool for the following year.
So what have I learned and thought about this year? For starters, that I should have really invested in my site sooner rather than later. Even though I don't update as much as I would like to, I have something that I can build upon. I have taken the first step. But with that being said, I will really try to make an honest effort to post more. That I feel much better communicating with people, even when things are not seen eye to eye. While I would like to hear from some much more frequently, I have to also make that effort and not feel so awkward about talking to those who I don't hear from much after long silences. That I need to put my work out there more. Admittedly, some of my pieces I don't feel are finished or okay to my standards and I tend to not post or show them. This is a mistake because no one will know what I can do or see my progress for themselves if I do not show them. And finally, I realize that I am more receptive for changing tides than I thought. I had made very specific plans for how my class and work schedules would operate with each semester remaining and I was content with that plan, but then on the first day of my new job and classes starting I discovered that I was pregnant. This revelation has had such an immense impact on my thoughts and feelings since that day. It wasn't as if I "felt my life was over" as some people describe. In fact, I have never felt so much purpose in life. I knew that I had to push myself harder because I will soon have another who will look to me for guidance and support. My child. I had hoped for years to know that type of joy, but didn't think it would actually happen for us. It's as if I had suddenly discovered a new source of strength and happiness that I never knew about. With that positive result, it seems like all of my doubts about many things in life seemed to vanish. I know when things will work out, with the same knowing that the sun will rise the next day. That, I think, has been my most important reflection this year. I am as ready to jump into motherhood as I was ready to jump into art years ago. And I plan to do both to the best of my physical and mental abilities. Long thought process short, I want to wish a Happy Holidays to everyone and hope that the New Year is a better and brighter day for all. -PS. Most pictures of new work will be added once moving and unpacking are done.
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Once again, it has been a while. This semester has proven to be very busy for me. A note to my future self would be to not take 3 studio classes in one go, but I know that I may have to again to finish school. The good news is that classes are winding down and the semester is over for me on the 13th of this month. The meh news is that after that time, we will be preparing to move into a larger home for our new addition coming next month. Moving in the last trimester is not a thing I look forward to, but it will be much more managable now than opposed to when the baby gets here. The meh part of that would be the fact that I may still not be able to post any large scale updates. They are on the horizon though. Once the school year is done, I will have a short reprieve to do something aside from projects and waking up early every day.
While busy, this semester has been very enlightening as far as my artistic career goes. I have been working with a variety of new mediums that I have never touched before and look forward to experimenting with in the near future. |
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